You Will Remember Me Then

Nothing worked, dear
I can’t go on,
This way forever.
Waiting, waiting and waiting.
This waiting has now,
Become a pain,
Like a sore throat,
That never cures,
And is evident in
Every word I speak.

And you, being there,
Still pretend
That I can forget you.
May be, I can
If you force me to.
But really,
Is it worth the price?
Will you be happy then?
With no one to distract you.
No one to remember you.

You said, “we are friends”
But let me tell you,
We are not.
Friends share their pain.
And find happiness,
Even though , its for a moment

But that never happened.
With us.
Think and brood.
Then, you will find.
That you were too afraid.
To care ,
To share,
Afraid that, you will be hurt.

But history don’t always repeat.
Dear, what happened before,
Wont happen again.
I wont hurt you.
But I don’t make promises.
It is for them,
Who don’t trust.

Do you know?
Just to see you smile.
I have cried hundreds of nights.
And just to see your face,
I have counted hundreds of days.
Just to hear your voice,
I have called you hundreds of times.

Its high time, you knew.
That I am incurable.
Love for you,
Is a sweet pain,
That I never want to get rid of.
It will always be there.
Always, inside my heart

See, even this ,
Poem doesn’t seem to end.
My feeling goes on and on,
Rises and falls ,
Like waves in the ocean.
Have you watched them
In a full moon light?
You will find me,
In your thoughts then.
Forever , haunting.
Like an unfulfilled dream.

Last Goodbye


Bye , dear.
From my heart,
From my love,
from my thoughts,
And from my emotions.
Its time ,I let you go.
You are free now.

All these years,
I have been holding you too tightly.
Hugging your memories,
And being lost on them.
Its time now,
To accept the reality.
No, its not bitter anymore.
Its okay, in fact.

Next time,
When we meet.
It will be same.
I will talk with you.
As if we were still close.
But , my eyes will be drifting away,
Somewhere else.
Will you notice them?

Well, I can be almost sure,
That you won't feel them.
It sounds like a conformation,
That I am repeating again and again,
Within my own heart.
Just don't ask questions from your eyes,
Again that way,
The way you did, when we were all alone.
And I couldn't answer then.
But this time, even if you do so.
I intend to face you defiantly
And show that it doesn't matter anymore.
On what you say and what you do.

The heart is still the same,
I am still the same.
But times have changed.
The situation has changed.
This has been going on too long.
Its now the time,
That I admit,
Its useless,
To love a man,
Who doesn't want to be loved.

Lonely Little Wife

Love is what matters most to me.
I am telling you this, very frankly.
I need sharing.
I need caring.
When the words won't do,
Use your eyes.
But be in touch with me.

Don't tell me that you love me.
But I need love,
That needs no telling and proving.

Lovers, you see!
Talk about flowers and stars,
When passions are hot.
But slowly it cools down.
As the marriage garland dries.
Then, the talk grows in growing price of vegetables.
Money becomes the prime talk.

I feel how it is.
I have seen
Fast love slowing down,
Hot love cooling down.

Oh! My cool love!
You don't know,
How my each heart beat.
Remembers you and cries out for your love.
You pretend not to hear.
But can't you feel?
Can't you see?
The love simmering in my eyes.
Don't you care at all?
About me, your lonely little wife?