Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Motherhood: guilt and dreams

From morning To night


I rush through life


That is a chaos


Created on my own choice



I know my precious one

You want me

Just to be with you

Hold your hand

Cradle you into sleep

Just to be with you

And marvel at your

Gestures that you learn everyday

The first instance you smiled

The first words you uttered

The first step you took


You want me

To play with you

And be like you

Innocent, full of marvel

And wonder at the world


But somehow I am caught up

In this web of responsibilities and obligations

Everything has become a “task”

To get over with

To complete

To finish

Sometimes even caring for you

Becomes a mere activity



But today my dear

I leave everything

I close my computer

Turn off my phone

And just take that walk

I have wanted to take since long

I will walk with you outside the door

Holding your little hands

I will let you take me

where you want

I will be beside you

To see things that you discover

and point out in the way

I might forget camera

But I will remember

Your pure, selfless smile

In my heart

And keep it there

To keep me sane enough

To rejoin the crazy hectic world again

1 comment:

  1. Anonymous1/28/2012

    Simple words, profound sentiment. Even when you decided to take time out for yourself, you went for a walk with your son. For you, it was so natural, where you did not even think of going alone. Thus, your words underline the fact that the greatest odyssey of life is motherhood.

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