Can You Do This?

I wish there was a flood!
And I could flow on with it,
With all residues of,
My negative feelings.
And after the heavy rain subsides,
Turn myself into fertile land,
Where your love could grow.

It's not that I didn't like you.
What I am afraid is,
You liked me!
Despite everything.
Despite of me not being myself anymore.
I am surprised!
That day, when I met you.
Or it was, when you met me.
That hollow laugh, I excluded.
"Beautiful," you said.
I stopped suddenly and looked at you.
While handing sugar for your coffee mechanically.
"How caring," you thought.
And revealed it later.
I don't know ,
How could I have touched your heart.
While I never intended to.
The bond you want to share,
Is not possible.
Yes, not till the storm comes.

I wish, I just wish there was a storm.
A very big storm.
I want to be broken,
I want to be shattered to the core.
And after the tranquility returns.
I want you to reconstruct me.
Mould me for your love.
Shape me into your emotions.
And recreate another "Me."
Can you do this?